Zeitschrift von der hell

First of all, I won't say I'm a normal guy
A normal guy thinks not with his brain but with his penis
I really have a brain and know how it works
I can be the sweetest boy or the biggest bitch
I make fun of my fruends just because I love them
I'm pretty shy but I talk a lot
I'm also sarcastic much, what is sometimes viewed as mean
I will never admit it, but I looove to be the center of attention
I'm hard to figure out and understand
Unpredictable, complex and stubborn - that's the definitions of me
I hate when people judge me before they get to know me
My bluntness sometimes upset people, but I can't help with it
I can easily brush shit off my shoulders, you'll rarely see me pissed off
I'm not trying to impress you
I joke around and I flirt a lot, but that doesn't mean I like you
I can get along with almost everyone
I looove meeting new people
If I think you're pretty, I'll tell you
I like waving to random strangers and having them wave back,
it makes me smile

yeah so fuckin what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! try being raised as i was w/ the problems i have und see if you can do any better..which i seriously doubt.

Fuck where to begin? So much shit has been going on that idk if I'm coming or going but one thing is for sure und that is I'm breaking. I told Jarell last nite that I couldnt handle it anymore ,pysically or mentally. shit w/ him so complicated. I love him in my own fucked up way cause I dont even know what love is but I would follow him to hell und back w/out being asked twice und he's 1 of 3 that I would do that for. But he's pushin me too far ,I do everything he's ever asked of me beyond pain und what my heart feels. I'm tryin to juggle schule,work, home, his demands... but I cant.